Friday, February 10, 2012


Sorry for the lack of decent updates, the hubby and I have been busy little beavers as of late. Currently we are trying to gather everything for the Dossier and it is turning out to be something of a challenge.

One of the things you need for the dossier is a criminal clearance from your local police station, written on a letterhead, stating that you are free of criminal activity. This little document has given us more trouble then anything else so far. There doesnt seem to be an officer willing to do this for us, even though when you think about it, writing a simple one sentence letter is not that hard.

We did however manage to get another document for travelling that basically states we are criminal free, so it is kind of like what our Agency requested, I just hope they accept it, because we paid quite a bit to get it, and we had to REDO our criminal checks in order to get it.

I actually had to leave school early in order to make it to the station before it closed, otherwise i wouldnt have been able to get it for over a month as I am in school for 26 days in a row, for 14 hours a day! Luckily we made it about 5 minutes before close, and they had forgotten to give us the travellers clearance paper, which was the reason we got the criminal checks in the first place! Weasles, I tell ya!

We also got our doctors written letters. Which was another slight struggle. But what is adoption without struggle!

I must say though, it feels amazing to be powering through all of this. We have nearly collected everything we need except for our completed homestudy report and our passports. Once we recieve that, we pretty much just need to notarize, and then SEND! Once it's sent it is pretty much just waiting, and waiting some more for a picture of our sweet angel! I CANT WAIT! It won't be long till i have his photograph, and until i can see my son, and say that i actually have a son!!

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Thinking of him...

is this the month that my son is going to be born? If everything with our adoption goes smoothly ( fingers crossed ) our son could be here before christmas, which means...he could be being born this very month.
The thought overwhelms me. On one hand, its amazing to think that somewhere out there, he is already alive, the little guy who will change our lives, who will be a part of them until the day we die is a million miles a way, in Africa, not yet knowing of us, or of anything that awaits him in the future.

On the other hand, it's devestating to think of what situation he might be facing, or will be facing until the 1-2 years when we finally hold him in our arms. Obviously he is going to have to face something major that will land him in an orphange, where he will then have to face many more dangers before he can come home safetly to us. I worry about how hungry he could be, how lonely, and how we are ready for him right now, but we have to wait, while he suffers in an orphange.
I see my nephew, who is a few months old, with his new clothes, his full tummy and a mom devoted to caring for his every need, and also able to care for his every need. He has more toys then he shall ever need , a clean bum in an expensive cloth diaper, thousands of photographs documenting his young life.

And somewhere out there is my son. Alone hungry and afraid. With nothing to his name, perhaps nothing even on his body. It breaks my heart more than i can say.
All i can do is wait, until the day when i don't have to.

Homestudy Complete!

As of last night...we are totally, officially approved. We completed all of our homestudy, and now we just await our social worker's report on us so that it may get sent out.

Our secondary Agency in the States also just recieved our documents and payment so now we have the go-ahead to start gathering the needed things for our dossier! Ahh i am so excited, it won't be long now! To think, soon, the congo will have recieved my documents and they will be finding the perfect little angel for our family mades me so excited that i almost don't even know what to do with myself. I don't mean to wish my life away but, I hope the next year or two of my life flys by so that i can have my sweet son in my arms.
Son...It is amazing to think that soon, i will have a son, and i will be a mother. It has been a long difficult journey, a 5 year long journey thus far, and quite honestly, i do believe it all happened for a reason. I was so blind in the past, seeing but not really. Looking back its so obvious that everything that was happening was happening so that eventually i would find the right path. The path to my son, in Africa, somewhere in the congo. Everything just unfolded so perfectly so that i would fall in love with adoption, and Africa, and when we were ready to take our adoption journey, things unfolded perfectly as if it were truly meant to be. ( Which it is! )
The only struggle i have is wishing i would have gone straight to adoption instead of fighting with something that was truly not meant to be. But everything is in its own right time. The right time is now, and i don't want to dwell on such a dark past when such a bright future awaits me. A future whereupon 2 become 3, and number 3, makes us the family we have so longed to become.